I can’t even talk to my parents without feeling an immense amount of sadness. I miss my family so much. I can’t bring myself to call them because I don’t want to think about how much I miss them. It’s easier to just not face it sometimes.
I thought moving here would be easy. I never thought I cared that much about family but I realize now that I love them more than anything. I am both dreading and looking forward to seeing them for a week or two in the summer. It’s bittersweet.
I’m really needing a change. I mean I’m not saying I’m unhappy I just think maybe I could be happier somewhere else. In the next week or so I will find out for sure if I am moving to Ohio or not. I honestly hope I am…
that when you are gone I don’t have any desire to do anything. I miss you. Come home already.
I applied for financial aid today, and requested information from both Le Cordon Bleu Dallas and Art Institute of Dallas today. I already have an appointment set up to go talk about the different programs and look around the le cordon bleu campus with an advisor. I figured my mom would be really excited since it was her who pushed me to do something with cooking… I just got off the phone with her maybe 10 minutes ago she couldn’t care less. Sometimes I forget why I am not so family oriented. I asked her if she wanted to come with me for my tour and she said no I have baking to do at the house. Cool mom, glad you give a shit about my future…
Yeah, no shit. So remember that storm I joked about? Well it fucking tore apart my apartment complex and my car. I have to go get a new windshield and rear window put in on Tuesday. My window in my apartment has yet to be fixed and it is ground level so it is easy access to the poor looting scum bags I live around. The complex has told we aren’t allowed to board up our windows all we can do is cover them with plastic and hope for the best. Obviously this didn’t appease me. I had to call in to work to ensure security today, and I have been sleeping with a shotgun next to the bed every night since the storm. I mean, yeah okay it sounds like I am paranoid but if I didn’t have a fucking hole in my wall I wouldn’t be worried about this shit, ya know? Anyways in order to get the ball rolling we talked to the office manager of our apartments and she basically told us it would be another week before our window is repaired! I’m sorry fuck that shit. So I contacted their corporate office, I called the city of Irving’s code enforcement number, and emailed a complaint to the city of Irving on the apartment complex. Now I am just writing up a letter to the management of the apartments letting them know that we have issued a complaint and expect to board up or have our window fixed as soon as possible.
time to take shelter! :( I should have prepared the storm shelter with supplies haha
